Ennui

a melancholic ennui

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The sundial leans into the wrong hour,
its shadow spilling
like ink across the stones.
It marks not time,
but the absence of it.

 

Shadows wander about
or stand their ground,
as if unsure
whether to stray or stay.

They carry the weight
of conversations
that never began.

Would you surrender forever
for a moment alone?

The question drifts
through the courtyard air,
unanswered,
flinging itself into the wind.

 

A woman at the far bench
traces the rim of her coffee cup
as though it were a coastline.

Her eyes follow
an invisible map —
one that leads
only back to here.

 

Somewhere,
a child’s kite
hangs motionless in the sky,
its string slack,
its colours fading
into the same
grey hour.

 

 

 

 

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between the hours

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The Yawn Between Hours

 

The plaza holds its breath.

A wind gathers,

but only enough to lift

the corners of yesterday’s paper.

 

I walk the edge —

stone to shadow,

shadow to stone —

smiling the smile

I made a couple of hours ago,

still warm in its pocket.

 

Visitors pose for a photograph

they will put off

for another hour,

or another day.

The fountain repeats itself,

water folding into water,

circles without departure.

 

Somewhere,

a sundial leans into the wrong hour,

its bronze hand

always too late.

 

The yawn arrives without warning,

a soft collapse of the face,

a brief surrender to the weight

of the afternoon.

 

And yet,

in the far corner,

a child’s shout

breaks the air —

a spark that rises,

then falls back

into the slow turning

of the plaza’s breath.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Author's Notes/Comments: 

There was a time in my early 20s when I was so full and so empty at the same time, living in cold water apartments, sleeping in bathtubs, fucking and pretending, and going to college.  I've lived at sea now for a few years and sex and seduction are more and more becoming distant memories.  This poem is about a strange time when one could be naturalistic without being ineloquent, and heartfelt yet unsentimental, and get away with the grandest prize.  Looking back on it now and writing this, it seems very sad and beautiful and alien and a little evil, and I miss it late at night and early in the morning.

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