I got to the point in my life from waiting for you...
To thinking there'd never be a you...
Not long after what had felt like my world began to crumble...
A new home that actually feels like a home came and begin to build into my life.
Loss occured along the way but not because of us.
A stroke who took my grandmother from us, heart failure that took my grandfather from us, and covid-19 who took away my adoptive Father...
Inside I'm still screaming...
I miss my kids too I grieve too for what isn't gone...
My heart understood yours...
You stood by me through it all when everyone else left for less.
I adore that you find me worth it, when I don't.
I love you so much! Xoxo!
Life without you wasn't really living I kept waiting to die.
Disappointed every time I'd open my eyes...
Until the day the I saw you...
Then they had a reason to want to open every day.
You're perfect just as you are.
I adore you...
My perfect 10.
My everything...
I was dead until you...
Sometimes I wish I'd met you sooner but I remember who I was too...
I think I needed to be this version of myself first to be perfect for you and that's why it took this long...
I have never love anyone or anything more.
I don't know how I lived without you but I never want to again.
You are more then the light in my life, you're my reason why...
Why I get up again, and again, and again.
Never Thought There'd be a You...
You're the whole a was looking for...
No, never thought there'd be a you...
I am not seperate from the whole.
Every particle of the ocean speaks to me.
The movement of the oceanbody is the movement of mine.
My personality is a seperate wave.
Words can not express such deep feelings and knowings,
So we listen in silence
giving our full attention.
We tend to believe that when we speak
we will be heard the loudest.
Through the force of words we will get our point across.
But there is a great power,
a movement that occurs,
a shift that takes place,
in silence.
There is a healing that words could never say.
We believe our seperate words are powerful,
But silence is the whole.
It is not our breath that moves the world
But the power that breathes life into us
and in which can breathe through us
if we honor silence
and listen
truly listen
to the whole.
You are the logic to my fantasy,
The humor to my furrowed brow,
You opened my eyes so I could see,
And made my frown turn upside down.
I love you so much it aches,
But not in a sorrowful way,
Like the feeling you get when
Someone takes your breath away.
For these reasons I see you,
Not as better, oh no....
You are my other half...
The one who makes me whole.
Brandy Noelle Souza
7-15-2013