SIN!
We've got a sinner right here!
SIN!
Devil's got a winner right here!
SIN!
We've got a sinner right here!
SIN!
Devil's got a winner right here!
I see her, Deceiver, a believer in Fear~
She's lonely, and owned see, a product of tempt only
Below me, faith sown deep, testing me, it grows 'neath
Untestable, blessed inall, instincts are unquestionable
Does God want me to guide her?
Or the satisfaction I provide her?
Lucifer wants me to be the divder
Rule, control, conquer and ride her
No...
SIN!
We've got a sinner right here!
SIN!
Devil's got a winner right here!
SIN!
We've got a sinner right here!
SIN!
Devil's got a winner right here!
Confident, Competent, perfect body concomitant
redeemer, I'd be her, naive demeanor
So Begiled, it's wild, her faith reconciled
Saviour! but I'd savour the Sinful Behaviour
In scarlet, a harlot, yet an innocent mess
Lost and confused in God's given test
Me, She anticipates, Looking her very best
Lust is the feeling she's willing to confess
SIN!
We've got a sinner right here!
SIN!
Devil's got a winner right here!
SIN!
We've got a sinner right here!
SIN!
Devil's got a winner right here!
I will admit
I'd try it
My blessings
won't hide it
My children
confided
I'm too blessed
So I've decided...
SIN!
We've got a sinner right here!
SIN!
Devil's got a winner right here!
SIN!
We've got a sinner right here!
SIN!
Devil's got a winner right here!
SIN!
She's living in fear!
SIN!
Devil's trying to steer!
SIN!
We've got a sinner right here!
SIN!
Devil's got a winner right here!
I see her, Deceiver, a believer in Fear~
She's lonely, and owned see, a product of tempt only
Below me, faith sown deep, testing me, it grows 'neath
Untestable, blessed inall, instincts are unquestionable
Confident, Competent, perfect body concomitant
redeemer, I'd be her, naive demeanor
So Begiled, it's wild, her faith reconciled
Saviour! but I'd savour the Sinful Behaviour
In scarlet, a harlot, yet an innocent mess
Lost and confused in God's given test
Me, She anticipates, Looking her very best
Lust is the feeling she's willing to confess
Does God want me to guide her?
Or the satisfaction I provide her?
Lucifer wants me to be the divder
Rule, control, conquer and ride her
I will admit
I'd try it
My blessings
won't hide it
My children
confided
I'm too blessed
So I've decided...
No...
SIN!
We've got a sinner right here!
SIN!
Devil's got a winner right here!
SIN!
We've got a sinner right here!
SIN!
Devil's got a winner right here!
SIN!
We've got a sinner right here!
SIN!
Devil's got a winner right here!
SIN!
We've got a sinner right here!
SIN!
Devil's got a winner right here!
There is so much to say.
I think I know
who you are
and I want to spell it out.
I want to spell it out together.
I thought I knew
what I wanted
before everything came
screaming down the mountain.
I am caught up in myself
and caught melting in the past.
This coarse mess rushes toward me
and I am ruined by truth.
I don’t know what I want
and how is that any different
from not knowing who I am?
I want to know everything
and not get tangled in the knowing.
I want to know who I am,
I want to know you.
Can it be real
or am I just fooling myself?
To believe that your love for me
Has not been put on a shelf
Packed away and discarded
Like an old photo or toy
Your pure and unconditional love
Like when you were a boy
Innocent and sweet
You held me in your heart
But now the years and life’s challenges
Have torn us apart
You have chosen a path
That is rocky and tough
And my guidance and attempts to divert you
Have not been enough
You ran from youth fast
Confused and unsure
Towards the deceitful blinding light
Of adulthoods allure
As I stand here and watch you stumble
Like when you took your first steps
But now unable to help or reach out to you
Now that you’ve fallen into the depts
But my hand will always be within reach for you
And my heart open wide
To take hold of either
If you should ever decide
I wish you only happiness
And pray you will find
All the things you’ll need in your life
To replace what you’ve left behind
I will say goodbye to you
But only for now
Because I know you will find your way back to me
Someday or somehow
I don't understand
Myself
I don't understand
Others
I don't understand
The world
I don't understand
The universe
Why? Must I perservere
With myself
Why? Must i perservere
With others
Why? Must I perservere
with the world
Why? Must i persevere
With the universe
I believe, i donk know.....
In mine owned reality
As real as the folks i see
Struggling to find answers
Confusion in me dances.
Confused,
Is how I came to you,
as an 18 year old,
and I imagine it's how I'll leave,
I,
hold no grudge,
Because you have taught me,
All there is to teach,
a young man,
You,
stood by me,
As choas,
buried my curly head beneath currents,
no one could see,
At,
depths noone,
could ever hope to reach,
You,
stood agast,
As I stumbled,
ass backward,
Into the stupidest things,
I've,
Ever said,
to the kindest women,
I'd ever meet,
You,
laugh with me, astonished,
As my dull gaze,
tries to make sense of a world,
That is honestly not that fucking complicated,
You,
watch my shoulders ache,
my checks flare,
As I internalized the latest,
grave injustice placed upon me (sad),
You watch me miss that doctors appointment again.
And,
You.
Like everyone else,
Wonder,
Why the hell do I tolerate this idiot?
But you do,
And it shatters me with warmth.
I tried, you know, I tried to be happy, I tried to help you, even after I tried to help myself and failed. I tried, and let me show you exactly how hard it is to try anymore... I'm like the East and you're like the West, I want to rise, and you want to set, I took you in, you left me be, I did this because without you, I can't be me. Right now, life is dismal, and your mood spins in your head like a spindle. I've told you that I love you, but all you did was shrug your shoulders, so I'll go away, I'll leave you be, because that's obviously what you need. I mean, you made it quite clear to me, so for now, I wish that you'd fare well, all alone in the cold that's oh so bitter... You know, it's better this way, frigid in place, alone in that rut with your hands covering your face. Streams of salty warmth stain it, and the only thing that you manage to say is "I'm fine", and "I can take it"... My brother, I just hope that you'll come back to me one day, broken and all alone, just the way that you are, perfect in my eyes, crawling up to me asking for some type of hope or hero, so that I can give you what's left of me, leaving me with just a smile and this loving, lucid, leprotic disease. All that I ask in return is that you embrace me, so that you could truly feel me. I understand that you can "take it", but it hurts me and I can't even comprehend or understand it... So, if you need me, let me know, but until then, you're all alone, standing frozen, in the cold.
Thank you, and God bless
I saw a beheading today
As I sat caressing my new shoes
I am trapped in white,
Swallowed by confusions,
Blinded by beauty,
Darkened by mist of my own thoughts,
Clouded by unforseen words,
Words I had lost,
Those flapping the ears wide open,
Those heard but unknownly hurt,
Regardless to what we've encounted.
It’s not that I can’t decide
who you are,
though I can’t.
It’s that I can’t decide
what I want you to be.
Maybe a diamond,
or a seashell,
or a plain old rock
to skip across the lake.
Maybe a square
that I can count on
to be constant,
or a shapeshifter.
Maybe a breath,
or a blink,
or an open road.
Maybe pure color,
or black and white,
or somewhere in between.
Maybe summer,
or spring,
or snowball fights.
Maybe a heist,
maybe a dream.
Maybe insanity.
Maybe a twilight
with a bonfire,
or a view,
maybe just a moment.
Maybe a lighthouse,
or a rescue ship,
or a canopy
just to keep out the rain.
Maybe a hero,
or a white knight,
or a human.
He whispers,
Make a wish,
and I would
if I knew what to wish for.