Though it may be to your: Though it may be to your disappointment, I do hope that far more people than not have their mental and emotional guns aimed at that ash pile and on the ready, because I do anticipate a pheonix attempting to arise at some point.
You're welcome - thoroughly: You're welcome - thoroughly enjoyed poem, and exchange of thoughts thereafter.
Per both your poem and your remarks on validation, being in the field of horticulture, it comes to my mind that we are in a transformation from being cacti to celery: from only needing the occasional watering of external validation to a constant thirst.
Oh that is an intoxicating: Oh that is an intoxicating thought process John! Where anything and everything must be publicly celebrated in the western society's we do lose that sense of self validation and equilibrium, it all has to come from outside of us. Your review and response is truly appreciated and always welcome. /Rik.
Wow. : Astonished by this in particular...
"Now in the unendurable
embrace of beauty—
icy purity—
I practice the fine
art of forgetting,
yet somehow you're
still the wind
chiming without
a voice,
and I still carry around
this collapsable heart,
still adore the idea
of love's giddy hazard,
while knowing
joy was never something
outside myself."
I've been on this site many years. I am ecstatic to have stumbled upon your writing and can't wait to endure more.
Another well crafted poem,: Another well crafted poem, sir. When consumption comes so easy (a la carte, indeed), creative inspiration can easily be displaced by distraction. The 'private peace' has gone from a right of human passage to a lost art for much of society. Lots of great, on point lines here. Fine work encased around observations that are much appreciated by this reader.
If it's any consolation to: If it's any consolation to you, life is better for LGBTQ+ persons than it has been for almost the entirety of human history - at least in the western world (I can't claim up or down for most elsewhere, don't know enough). When I was a kid, it was still relatively risky to step out into the world for friends who merely appeared to others to be gay (I imagine you've seen more and worse of this than I have, in your life). That, for the most part, has changed. It could be better yet - and I hope it will be, right along with you. But, also, every grouping of people, and I mean every single group, needs to learn how to treat each other better. At this point, as far as I can see, we spend too much time infighting between identity groups and dragging each other down, back and forth, while the smallest group - the ruling class - gets richer and more powerful. We get played against one another, and the greatest protest we have yet to successfully make is to stand together against it. All the best to you, you write beautifully, as always.
The most knowledgeable people: The most knowledgeable people in the world reasonably know less than 1% of all there is to know. "Expert" is a relative term. In the eyes of the universe, the wisest men are 3 year olds, at best. Humility often gets lost behind many things, including certificates and books that have it all neatly laid out. "The truth" changes all the time, in one way or another, and then another. If we're willing to listen and be open-minded, we will be caught off guard and misled less, and - at least as valuably - learn more.
Full of imagery and lines to love!: Beautiful and wise, enriching. My favorite lines: "an idea far-flung/gets into your/morality"
Instantly a favorite of this reader, on the whole. : )