After she died…when he thought his world was coming to an end
he looked for solace and support…in the comfort of a friend.
He worried he was lost in a cloud of sorrow…
he wondered how…or where or when…
he would discover a way out…
If he would ever laugh again.
His friend, who understood his pain…
who’d been down a similar path
who knew of his own sorrow and suffering
felt his own anger…his own wrath…
Said…
“You never get over losing someone you love
there will always be a bit of sorrow in your heart
and your mind too…
but one day you will ask yourself…
what would she want you to do?”
“Would she want you be engulfed in sorrow
for the remainder of your days…
or would she want you to exit your cloud of sadness
and somehow find a way.”
“To live, to laugh, to love again…
and even though you are unsure….
the sadness lifts when you decide…
to do all these things for her”
“And do not worry my friend.” he said
“Take if from someone who was once lost within that cloud…
I have no doubt you will laugh again…
you’ll just never laugh as loud.”
He believes he first fell in love with her eyes…they are so revealing…
they’ve always told her story…..expressed how she was feeling.
Through all their years together he is no longer surprised
how easily he can read her…when he looks into her eyes.
The way her happiness, her joy, her excitement…
her sense of adventure…her ecstasy…
come bursting through her eyes makes it easy for him to see.
Sharing in her joy and laughter is effortless …as they are easy to discern…
but dealing with her sadness……Well…this he had to learn.
When he saw sadness in her eyes…this made him want to find a way
to look into those eyes and make her sadness go away.
He tried to do things to make her happy…to find words both comforting and wise…
anything and everything he could think of to bring the joy back to her eyes.
But words don’t often stop one’s sorrow….this principle is ironclad!
and when sadness surfaces or re-surfaces
a person just needs some time to be a little sad.
Now he silently holds her in her sorrow…because through the years he’s learned
her eyes will reveal the moment her happiness returns.
For he is confident knowing her sorrow will fade away eventually
and that her sad eyes still have many happy moments…she has yet to see.