Hola, This poem was written when I was in a very DARK place in life. We had just planned the birth of my AMAZING son and was expecting him to be born in Oct. However after 14 hrs of labor and 5 months pregnant we gave BIRTH to an ANGEL *Prince Collin*. I often visit forms where mommies and daddies were so EXCITED to get there RAINBOW baby. I didnt know what it was.. In my poem when I say.. Is this the person I want to be ? I am refering to ME being able to identify with parents that have a rainbow baby. I'd much rather have a BABY with out having the rainbow. ONLY soley because the rainbow... means.. the LOST of a child and the NEW birth of a child after the lost which is ** the Rainbow ** But.. TODAY I am smiling I am happy to say.... I have RECIEVED my rainbow he is now 2 and I wouldnt change ANYTHING ! I love him with my WHOLE heart :-)