I wrote this poem 3 weeks ago, and it was because I was feeling very suicidal. And now that I think back to it, it is actually a good thing I wrote it too. I lucked out to write this poem before my poetry journal got taken away from me for 2 weeks. But now I have it back I'm back in the poetry business. Now I'll write poetry with a heart and soul. I guess it's what my friends are helping me out with that is really helping me to get with it.