Kindness is not enough
I challenge myself to find why
No justifiable words can tell him
Perfection does not exist
But a space for ideals is a part of me
So I punish the present with judgement
Compromise is possible
Yet I will wall up the place for it
unable to reason it's working in reality
I take the best of today
Knowing that I hold
the anguish of tomorrow in my intentions
What right have I got to his care
When it circles my selfish centre
Supporting what it can never truely touch
I think I've guessed the end of this story,
but I don't want to reach the final page.
My pages to turn,
but I can't act upon a feeling, when the scene in which I sit is still being written.
I cannot pre-empt a scenario which will leave us both in such pain
May the plot twist so that I can believe in what he feels and know that feeling.
That is the only ending I cannot foretell.