Im in love and I hate it,
It hurts so much,
Why did I have to fall in love with you?
You are like poison in my veins,
Im totally addicted to your games,
You are beautiful,
That beauty is tained,
I cant take it any more,
What am I supposed to do?
I want to be with you,
I want to run away from you,
I feel like Im spiralling down a hole,
I make the same mistakes,
Over and over again,
I cant walk away,
Like a moth drawn to a flame,
My heart overrules my head,
Its agony,
Its ecstasy,
I cant decide what I want more,
The pleasure or the pain,
Its magic the way you hypnotise,
I dont know what to believe any more,
My head is so messed up,
I love you,
I hate you,
I hate myself,
I look up to the stars and the planets for guidance,
I feel like Im falling through space,
I dont have the strength inside,
My head hangs low,
My heart pulled in different directions,
The tears flow freely,
I need to be strong,
I need to move on,
You make me feel bad and its not fair,
I feel so lost.