Can't let go of the past
can't help but think,
if I had turned right instead of left
what the outcome would be
I'm not learning, I'm yearning
for something that once was
for something that could have been
I messed up
Dwelling in my sorrow,
knowing that there's no tomorrow
I hate what I have become
totally undone
Can't get it right
no need to fight
thinking of what I might
time to turn out the light
can't get a bite
not even a fight
nothing seems bright
This pain,
is definitely not a gain
it hurts,
like I'm being eaten from the inside out
being numb
doesn't mean I have to be a bum
or better yet a scum
can't embrace, won't embrace
what's to become