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Letters to Petula

A promise -
When caught
- Just in time,
is just as light


As a prayer
In the pause
Before a kiss...

Part #62 - An Early Summer Evening

Letters to Petula

My dearest Petula, oh I wish I knew a way to tell you how much I love you. No poem or song can possibly express the depth of my feelings for you. Poems are inadequate but they are all I have. My heart is yours, my love, completely, honestly and truly. It is yours forever and I could never take it away. You are special and beautiful to me like no other ever was or could be.


The last 9 years with you have passed so quickly, even though we've been through so much together. We've had our ups and downs of course, but I would not trade for all the money in the world. Sometimes I wish we could've met much sooner so that we'd have more time together. But I want the time we have going forward to be special. I want every day with you to mean something, no matter how small.


I thought maybe the intensity of these feelings would lessen a bit but no, they just seem to get stronger. Whether we make love, or I just hold you at night, my heart is set free from all past hurts. You have set me free but free as I am, I am still yours.


Sometimes I look at you when you don't notice. Like in the car or the bus. When I look at you my heart melts because you're so beautiful. And to feel you, the softness of your beautiful tropical chocolate skin, every inch of you is heavenly to touch and yes, it's a mystery how I can be daydreaming so much about you when we've been together for so long already, but there it is. I am so in love with you, my angel, more than I've ever been before....

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(I Draw) Circles of the Heart

Letters to Petula

I drew a circle
in the sands that fell through my heart
And pooled at my feet


I drew a circle
So that you would know
No matter how far I go


I always come back to you
That I return to you
As faithfully as the earth orbits the sun


Every word that I write to you
Is a circle, with you at the centre
As if you were a bright, burning star


That guides my way, that lights my life
I draw circles when alone, when with you
I am compelled to draw them


To know where we've been
To know where we're going to
I draw circles so that I never forget
I draw them so you will always remember:


The complete, the perfect, the infinite
love that I feel for you.

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For my beautiful Petula, if there was any way I could love you more, I swear I would...

My Sweet Beautiful Petula -

Letters to Petula

Loving you


is like being swept away

By the tide of some


vast ocean
into which all rivers


present their gifts
of eternal water


and become inseparable
as the white horses


throw our names

into the wind


Scattering us
Along every shoreline.

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For my wife.

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Loving Petula

Letters to Petula

I'll never say it lightly -
That I want to dissolve
into the look of your life


Because when I love
It's like the way a flower
sings to the bees -


Where it asks, just for a moment:
"Let me touch your beautiful face
And understand its every aspect"


Which I imagine is also unbearably
close to the feeling


Of falling into the tall grass
of God's heart
That sways in the breeze
That sighs under the sun.

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For my beautiful wife.

Reconnecting (on a Saturday Afternoon)

Letters to Petula

Kissing on the couch
On a Saturday afternoon
Tenderly, with a teen's thumping heart


Your eyes steal the breath from my body
And when you touch my cheek,
Your fingertips spell it out -


Only here -
Do the sweetest looks disguise:

Two forty-somethings and
Nine years already spent together.

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For my beautiful wife, Petula.

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Part #56 - We Reconnected

Letters to Petula

All these words, It's all for you, these words that burn in my heart every day and pour from me, like the most natural action, with all the ease of breathing. Oh God, how I love you so much, my sweet beautiful Petula. I die a thousand deaths an hour that I'm away from you, as crazy as that is when we've been living together more than 7 years already.


I love you with all the love of great passions and great love stories and dramatic declarations and beautiful songs and epic poems and all the magic things that come from a feeling that started small but burned deep and bright and exploded into this, with all the love of crazy fireworks and daydreams and stars and soul connections and the wonder of chemistry and physics and whatever it is that happens between two people that brings and keeps them together not only in life on Earth but whatever lies beyond it.


I love you with all the mystery of how you can be with someone for 9 years and feel like this. Mostly I love you with the love that is at the heart of what makes us human, our very essence. I love you as you are, as I know you so intimately through the years, yet with the fearless, all-trusting love of someone falling in love for the very first time and I love you with all the loves that could ever be all at the same time...


Whatever I've done in my life amidst all the stupid things, all the mess ups and mistakes (especially those in our marriage), whatever the story is that I leave behind one day, let it be that the one thing I got right, was that I loved you honestly, truly and purely, with all my heart and soul....Always. Ever and always...

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You Take My Breath Away

Letters to Petula

You take my breath away -

Where it goes after that,
I do not know


Maybe it joins with
The other breaths
Of my 44 years so far


In some far away place,
Below skies of all my hopes and dreams
Above ground of all past hurts


And says:

"This was the one worth holding for"

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For my beautiful wife, Petula

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More Than

Letters to Petula

I love you so deeply that even oceans are jealous,
I love you so completely that even circles are envious.
And, I believe, the universe has whispered to God
Of how it longs to be as big and endless
As my love for you.

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From "Letters to Petula 2020"

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