I don't know. There's no pain. I love him. I can't help it. I know now that we are meant for each other. Only I will love him. And only he will love me. And thank her for me, because she's really the reason, I've stopped hating him, and don't feel the hurt anymore. I think I realize now, that he and I are forever. And we will start our life again, the second I get off that plane at 2:35pm, January 6th, 2003.