you know, when you lose something you've had for so long whether it be a mild depression or a hated friend, you can't help but feel an emptiness where it once resided. a place in your life, your heart, where only it could reside. a space now empty, devoid of feeling... a numbness
personally, happiness is somehting that's been gone out of my life since i was 10 or 11... it will be different living like this. hey, who knows, maybe i'll start writing some happy stuph :-D
p.s.- don't hold your breath... lol