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so many lies could a paint the truth

so many issues could tie the noose

should I just go is it worth to hold on?

because it's seems like i'm dragging this out too long

It feels like I've created a 1000 fears

millions of tears and hurtful years

The guilt im ridden in doesn't seem to dissapear

I'm so selfish so scared of my onne fear

I don't want to be alone no one really does

everyone wants to be with who they loves

seaching and not knowing but looking anyway

thinking they found it lose it or throw it away

I can't express any emotion if you forced me not to

I couldn't pretend we were ok im not sure what to do

I don't your death on my conscience as selfish as that is

but don't you think playing victim has it's limits

I didn't mean to rub it in if that how you took it

I'm sick of trying to convince youto get over it

I'm not the greatest girl of all I'm completely fucked in the head

I'm trying to convince you the same thing about being dead

you told me not to worry to be strong and all that shit

but you ignor me completely just to slit your wrists

I'm addicted to the plesure of blood spewing from the vain

making me itch just to feel my unborn pain

I don't deserve my happiness I miss my torment and abuse

I miss my writing and  emotion and wishing i had a use

rocking myself so slowly wishing Id get to sleep

knowing this true happiness I have I cant keep

somethings going to spoil it, take it away from me

I don't want to give up on it but I'm too scared too see

I know I don't deserve him should I just let him go?

I far too depressed I'm far too low

to even see the happiness I show

This dark dark abyss deep inside my soul

seems to think It can swallow me whole



(but I'm too strong when I'm with you to allow it to)