These curses I evoke are the
words spoken by angels,
toking knowledge and wisdom,
an invitation to eat from the
tree of life...become a God; the
difference between a schizo and
I, a schizo does not believe I
am God-
I cannot pray, the tongues I
speak are not angelic...my
language is unholy; time after
time temptation became a friend
too trust, my life balances on
different scales now; what I
knew and the unknown-
The end of my journey began
the day I was born...invocations
of death at my front door, I
welcome her in, stays for awhile
then leaves in an uproar; she
says I am conspiring to kill
her from my existence...she does
not know death/her is more alive
than me-
My curse is poetic, too narrate my
life with pain and roller-coaster
emotions; an empty feeling without
being empty...became a father only
too miss my daughter daily, if I sleep
tonight I will shed tears of sadness
before I slumber-
Broken, yet stronger after each fall
too stand tall again, take a few steps
and fall again...judges keep your jury
silent, throw away your verdict;
judge my soul, critic my efforts when
I am standing up...everyone falls!
Outside my window the wind blows
and whistles, tree leaves rattle,
whispering; no vacancy in the
gallows, fire away...my ammunition
are these words I convey, "While
you creep, your soulmate sleeps
with the poet unknown, daydreaming
unknown dreams, consciously lost in
lust."
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