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Dear Jan
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1995 My one dearest Jan,
Where are you now?
I see you've been gone
From our hometown
It's been three years since I last saw you
I regret that I ever knew you
It was nothing but disgrace
You made me fall far from grace
I was 15
and knew nothing
You were old enough
To fool my young heart
I loved you too much
And soon when we touched
I never knew when to stop
Then you put me down to drop
That deep feeling was too high
It seemed too new to me
Those sad times were full of lies
But doubts never crossed me
They said I was lucky to have you
I guess they just don't know the true you
Your sick self that frightened me is far from
Your sweet face you displayed in our last prom
You acted so good
You fooled her too
She fell to your traps
Like me with your match
But you never loved her
Bet her clear vision blurred
'Cause she loved you too
The way I used to
Dear Jan, I'm turning 18 now
But Jan, I still remember how
You lost my trust and love
Replaced by tears and grudge
I played fair through your rules
I played games though so cruel
Then you laughed at the end of it all
Then I cried, "I should have known"
I was 15 and thoughtless
I danced through your flames and traps
You were 18 and ruthless
You planned that sad, heartless match
Dear Jan, I cried back then so hard
'Cause Jan, I gave you all my heart
You made me lose all of my faith
Yet I stood up after those fails
Jan, I'm smiling again now
Jan, I can love again now
Though they failed too
They weren't like you
Even if you answer things I ask
They can never bring back the past
You made myself hide for some time
You made my heart cry the whole time
Lessons from you should be learned
Pictures of you should be burned
Three years ago, I was naïve with you
Recalling you, I now know what to do
