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Back to back the night replays,
Sitting here with a bottle called decay
And we’ve got the depression scented incense
Sitting in a circle, wondering why it makes no kind of sense
Why I'm dwindling to live or live and suffer on the fence
I got fed up and left the room
Went outside, tried to escape all that gloom
But what I found next was even worse, just rumors of doom
I visited this house I called home, but I’m not on the lease,
It all sounds so familiar, got the corpse of me laying there on center of the floor while you feast
Got it displayed over there like an art piece
Act like it was the true me, as if I was already deceased
But I’m still here, on the same broken couch, still sitting here
You ignore me, go on, take another beer
Am I invisible? Do I not exist to you!?
Every part of me, debatable, divisible, that’s what you called only true.
I just want to find a breakthrough
And just like you, it never mattered, no matter what I do.
Just like you,
It feels like an eternity since I left, I never cared to say goodbye
All these broken objects still here, and I never understood why
But as I grew up, I know now, I know, it’s how you expressed to cry
The broken objects are a physical mental wall you built to hide
Broken and unwanted, justlike you,now I know, throwing it out was hard to decide
But you didn’t wanna outright say
You felt your own blood was a source of your betray
Leave the family, it’s better, leave them astray
Let her stay there, let her lay
With all her demons she keeps at bay
I know now, your mind
Deteriorated
Dementia kissed you on the cheek and made us her kind
And like you I met her too, I became contaminated
We are only moved by the broken blinds
Forever Unanimated
You worship this building and every hole in the wall
Hide insecurity, and all that was spoken, ignore another call.
Put duct tape over the mess, and defend it all
I wanted to ask, when did you begin this journey just to fall?
I should leave before the sickness drives me mad
And just like you I close the door
Until next time, dad
I close the door, and leave the past on the broken, dirty floor.
But unlike you, I must defeat what you couldn’t
The thing like me that you always avoid, the tainted inner core
