As the sun dips below the horizon I breathe a sigh of relief and bid farewell to the chaos of the day.
I graciously welcome the chill of the night, it is darkness I crave.
A darkness which allows me to escape from glare of failures that string behind me like countless box-cars on a railway line.
Only the sharpest eyes can find me here.
That is becuase they have spent so much time hiding here as well.
Now the rest of us just stand out.
But, who needs to hide from them anyway, they are just like us...because they are us!
Sitting back high to make time go by
Why can't I get it right one of these tries
And my dreams fading away when I close my eyes
Everything I've started has ended tragically
I'm always destroying all the good that I see
For some reason I'm out chasing some action
Ducking and dodging all of my life's passion
My clocks ticking, I feel it on the inside
While I'm twisting all the morals that I live by
All because I'm runnin from this pain
Storms clouds following me, I live in the rain
Been ten years since I've seen the sunshine days
I know I gotta man up, take this fight on now
Sweating through the night, I don't know how
I can make it another second, soul screaming out loud
Keep on pushing towards making yourself proud
Time's up, nowhere left to run to
Takes a lot of climbing to get back to the old you
Tired of spending days waiting on my miracle
Feeling spiritual making my life lyrical
If you relate to what I'm saying then stand up
Quit hoping for a chance CREATE YOUR OWN LUCK.
No warm sea breeze upon my face nor powdery sand beneath my feet, the bank I stand upon is rocky, cold and her waters run quite deep.
There is no safe harbor where fond memories have come to dock, just a ships graveyard filled with dreams that never took stock.
Tranquil seas do not grace these shores, just spells of doldrums between horrific storms.
Gleaming grommets of polished brass adorn not my decks, just signs of stress and casualties signifying frequent wrecks.
My crew, ragtag and often seasick, have nonetheless stuck with me when the thin replaced the thick.
So with a hull packed with regrets, burden, and remorse, the constant sailor I remain charts a new course.
But no matter how optimistic I may seem, without stars to navigate, port is but a dream.
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