KIND OF LIKE WHEN YOU GO IN A CROWDED ROOM FULL OF PEOPLE TALKING...SO MANY CONVERSATIONS GOING ON AT ONCE...HARD TO FOLLOW ANY OF THEM...INSTEAD I KINDA SPACE OUT ANXIOUSLY NOT KNOWING WHAT ANYONE IS SAYING AND FINDING IT HARD TO FOCUS ON ONE CONVERSATION WHEN SO MUCH IS GOING ON ALL AROUND ME...THAT IS WHAT THE NATURE SOUNDS FELT LIKE THIS MORNING I WAS TRYING TO LISTEN TO IN ORDER TO RELAX...FUNNY HOW THESE THINGS CAN BACKFIRE ON YOU SOMETIMES...
THAT LAST LINE THAT BECAME THE TITLE MUCH TO MY CHAGRIN SOUNDS FAMILIAR TO ME...I KNOW I USED THAT LINE IN ANOTHER POEM YEARS AGO I THINK I HAVE ON SOUNDCLOUD BUT MAYBE YOUTUBE... I MAY HAVE USED THAT TITLE BEFORE...THAT IS NOT A WORD I EVER USE NATURALLY BUT IT HAS POPPED UP IN MY POETRY BEFORE....NOT SURE WHERE IT COMES FROM BUT THEN AGAIN MY POETRY ALWAYS HAS ME GUESSING OR WONDERING WHERE THOSE LINES COME FROM...THEY COME QUICKLY AND DISAPPEAR EASILY SO I JUST TRY TO WRITE THEM DOWN AS FAST AS I CAN SO I DON'T LOSE THEM....IF I FIND THAT TITLE WAS USED FOR THAT OTHER POEM I WILL HAVE TO COME UP WITH ANOTHER ONE FOR ONE OF THEM OR THE OTHER....I GUESS I WILL CHANGE IT TO DESTINY IS TESTING ME SINCE I AM PRETTY SURE I HAVE USED THAT CHAGRIN LINE AS A TITLE BEFORE ....I FOUND THE OLD POEM I WAS THINKING OF ON SOUNDCLOUD IT IS CALLED MUCH TO OUR CHAGRIN BUT A LITTLE TOO CLOSE OF A TITLE FOR ME AND IT IS COMPLETELY DIFFERENT.... https://soundcloud.com/pamschwetz/much-to-our-chagrin-by-pam-schwetz?in=pamschwetz/sets/my-poetry-recited-by-me IT IS PART OF MY POETRY PLAYLIST ON SOUNDCLOUD....THE PLAYLIST SAYS NINE YEARS AGO SO IT IS SOMETHING THAT I REMEMBERED THAT TITLE BEING TAKEN OR TOO CLOSE FOR COMFORT ANYWAY OFF BY ONE WORD... HERE IS THE LINK TO THE POETRY PLAYLIST ON SOUNDCLOUD FROM NINE YEARS AGO... https://soundcloud.com/pamschwetz/sets/my-poetry-recited-by-me
I WAS SURPRISED TO SEE THE SPELLING AS I WOULD HAVE GUESSED SASSPARILLA SAME AS IT SOUNDS...THAT WORD JUST POPPED INTO MY HEAD WITH SOME EASY RHYMNES...DON'T THINK I EVER ACTUALLY HAD ANY OF THAT BEFORE BUT WAS TOLD IT TASTED LIKE ROOTBEER AND I HAVE HAD THAT IN THE PAST....NO MORE SODA OR POP OR SOFT DRINKS WHATEVER YOU CHOOSE TO CALL THEM FOR A LONG TIME NOW ONCE I FOUND OUT JUST HOW BAD THEY ARE FOR YOUR HEALTH...STAY AWAY FROM HIGH FRUCTOSE CORN SYRUP...FRIENDLY ADVICE...FUN WORD ANYWAY...WEIRD SPELLING...
NEVER FEEL THE NEED TO HAVE TO EXPLAIN YOURSELF TO ANYONE...WHO ARE THEY TO JUDGE OR FOR IT TO MATTER WHAT THEY THINK ABOUT YOU...BE THE BEST YOU CAN BE IN YOUR OWN EYES AND DON'T WORRY ABOUT WHAT ANYONE ELSE THINKS...LIKEWISE TRY NOT TO JUDGE ANYONE ELSE BASED ON THE WAY YOU THINK THINGS SHOULD BE....MOST LIKELY EASIER SAID THAN DONE BUT WORTH THE EFFORT.
THOUGHTS ON AN OPEN MIND...DO ANY OF US TRULY HAVE AN OPEN MIND...IT'S EASY TO GET LOST IN THOUGHT...THAT SOUNDS LIKE ANOTHER POEM STARTING...I WILL SEE WHERE THAT GOES...
