This is pretty much just an expression of some of my childhood and the relationship between my dad and I. I orignially wrote this as a song but I don't really know the roads of doing that. It's really just a freestyle I put together straight from my mind. I didn't give it too much of an image yet so this pretty much just a rough draft. I figured that I just say what I had to say and make it rhyme and try to turn it into a poem for now and maybe one day make the song because this is all coming from within my thoughts throughout my childhood to now. I really wish to let him see this so he knows how I feel and I plan on making sure that that happens. I just want him to understand the pain that I went through growing up because of him and I want him to see that it wasn't okay to do. No child was asked to be brought to this messed up world and I feel like if you bring someone into this life you should do the best to take care of them, and my dad didnt do that for me or my other brothers and sisters. But in a way I appreciate it because I learned to appreciate and love my mom so much more. Thats my number one woman and we have a bond that no one can take from us and shes a part of me. I'd do anything for her. If she just so happens to tell me to slap somebody, they better be prepared to fight because i'm gonna do it lol but shes a big part of my life and the most beautiful and caring and strongest person I ever knew. And one day I plan on making a poem for her but I feel like so many words cant explain the love I have for her and how much I appreciate her being there for me and 7 other brothers and sisters. See i'm already getting carried away with talking about her lol but anyways I hope people enjoy, especially the ones that can understand and relate to my story of not having a father around.
