by Jeph Johnson
The plane crashes
waking me
from a Saturday afternoon slumber...
I must call my mother!
...for I am crying and sobbing
Tears and snot reservoirs
flood behind my nose
damning my will
I wonder if my breath
is still worth grasping for
as I dial
she is not home
but has a new cell phone
I jot the long distance number down
after three rings her voice
reassures me she's still there
"But mom, it was me who was in the crash!"
I thought I was alright
-even mad that I wasn't able to sue!
I laid in the airport on a stretcher
you came right away to snuggle
...comfort me in my pain...
and brought me a book called "MNO"
The older I get
the less I can do for myself
My nursery was spotless,
my bachelor pad
is like the set of
Saving Private Ryan
with sentiment
but without purpose
young attractive girls
rear their ugly heads
everywhere I go
(it used to be Jesus)
maybe someone can help
sort through compact discs,
pop culture and porn,
pictures and trinkets,
baseball cards and posters
and maybe someone can
even alphabetize my books
putting the one you gave me
from the dream
in the middle
amongst the clouds I soared
adrift a calm...... blue...... sea...
I felt like a stranger to my own body
I know I haven't changed, but Ill never be the same
I couldn't look in his eyes
frightened of what I might see
startled by what I felt
eyes I could never ......ever tire of
my hand in his.....trembling
his arm around me.....so strong and yet I was scared
bodies pressed together .......yearning, craving
I felt his gaze....temperature rising
closer.....tighter
I felt every word he sang ......spinning
I close my eyes .......breathing deeply......a sigh
checks flushed........life had just begun!
deep gasp..........memorizing his scent
filling my lungs
all my unanswered questions ......answered
gaping wounds .......healed
touching me so deep within
making me hungry for love
reaching where No one has ever been
broaching unbridled passions
was it really him
how did he find me......he traveled so far
so many years I have waited
could it truly be him??
music fading, room growing darker
opening up I felt his very soul
silence, calm, completeness, final I was home,
all this with , but that first dance
Whistles this dream
Full spectrum trance
Shrill plummetting
Down the mind's ears
Striking it's heart
Drean claws
This'll be my train
Aurapierced man
Leaves the scene
Then gunfire
Scares the other cats
Absinthe darkness
Old coat and white face
Ne'er betray hollow rust
Spent days
Until the dusk of this eve
Had never been
Blessed
Sharp shot insight
The shunned light of this
Never allowed Box of pain
The tramplers
Heavy riding and swift
Withers and fades
Like Hiroshima and
Dresden in the collapse of all logic
Void of feeling
Then gunfire scares the other cats
Absinthe darkness
Sleeps like a baby
Aurapierced man
Pay him no mind
He was just a dream
Hey lover
They're dropping the bomb
Whistles this dream
Wild shrieking
Hammer of delight
Shredding his sould and vanishing
Boojumstyle
With the click of handcuffs
When all your dreams
become reality...
Thus you have reached -
the climax...
Life's Finality.
Dreams like choclate melt
they so quickly dissapear.
Both symbolize how I felt
about the one I see dear.
The chocolate makes sweet
sweetness in thier soul.
But melts away with heat
leaving in them a hole.
The dreams show life
or what it should be.
You at my side,me your wife
but I must be free.
Like chocolate deams melt
to become nothing in the sun.
All in the past,How I felt
now I'll never call you hun.
by Jeph Johnson
We had some sort of sex last night or something to the intimate equivalent.
She let me touch her as she smiled and I believed again in bliss for I recalled it once existed.
And those smiles were accompanied by the soft and gentle closing of emerald eyes.
Her cheeks faintly kissed my fingertips as I began painting a mural of the only real glimpse I've ever had of love.
Even in my dreams my art's misunderstood, for I woke up long before I should've.
Doom like fog combs through the Devil’s Backbone
Lengthening into strands of melancholy
Dampened by sweet…sweeter tears.
Feel the missing beats stolen by fright?
Awakening, arousing the most sound?
Night sweats and dreams,
Dreams lost to the living but for snags
Here and there.
Cross over the Devil’s Backbone
Back to earth,
Back to life.
Can you see peace?
Can you taste peace?
Or can you feel peace?
Those answers are unexplainable
It is what peace is to you
Sometimes magical
But also mysterious
You never really know peace
Until you can feel it in your heart
But even then it is still unexplainable
Sometimes you can mistake peace being love
Because most of the time peace is love
But not from a person
But from God up above
So now you should be able to tell me your answers
And if you still don't understand about peace and love
Just pray to God from up above