Dec. 23, 2008
I wrote this after I broke up with my boyfriend of about a mont and a half now that may seem lame to some of you who have been in longer relationships, but he was my first relationship and also my best friend so that really hurt the anger and rejection and self esteme issues and resentment I thought was long gone crept back up on me and I need a healthy way of letting out those emotions with out hurting myself or others so I worte, this was written in about a day or two as you can see how the poem switches from extremly pissed off and angry to be a little more sad and mello and that is because that is how I was feeling day one, but after a good nights rest the anger among other emotions had dissapeared, but the saddness remained, remember I had just lost my first boyfriend well first "official boyfrined" Oh, Well for those of you who want to know we are still frinds as the poem reads and I did have to fake a smile around him for about a mont or so, but all in all as i stated i'd rather have him as a frind than loose him completely you know any way I still sometimes hope that we will get back togeter, partially beacause I felt so good when I was with him, but I try to slap myself back into reality most of the time and say to myself girl you need to move on because he has, ya know, but sometimes it just seems like he hasnt moved on yet, but I think I should be sinceable and just realize that I'm not right for him and just tell myself that I need to go on with my life hopefully with him as a lifetime friend and us being each others support system! Well I hope if any one has read this far you enjoy this poem and tell me what you think
