I have a fear against disappointment and failour. I always have to prove that I can do better, but when I cant... achieve wat I aimed for, I die. And my parents always get so disappointed in me that it always makes me feel so worthless and so stupid... I often ask myself, why cant I be more like my older sister? (who's perfect by the way) They ask the same question and I always hate them for compareing me to her, but right now...I am the one who's compareing...