I have to say, that this is also unfortunately autobiographical...I use to make myself stay up longer till I was weary. and red eyed!!!..but, since I am on only a three hour limit...I can't go over that limit any longer...because I have so many other things to do in my life...and also because my fiance' doesn't want me to "waste away" my mind, spirit, and personality...so I have to keep my head above "water" and just "deal with the addiction" and have a "life" instead! ;-)