Internet Addiction

Friends and family,

say I've lost my mind,

they even claim,

I lose track of time!



I'm rude, I'm mean,

say things, obscene,

when sitting in front

of my internet screen!



While I don't always agree,

that this really is me....

I guess there's room

for probability!



There are times, I'm

quite alone,at my

home,on my own,

nobody comes

to my home,

nobody calls,

it's like

I'm in a "zone"!



I forget about friends,

I forget about family,

I'm enjoying my "screen time"

and it's more than just

"dabbling"!



And after that,

I'm asleep on the table,

I'm too pooped,not

willing or abled,

to rise up, out of

my chair

to get into bed,

and put my body

in there!



And close my eyes,

give my mind a rest,

get ready for dawn,

with plenty of zest!







But, it's past dawn,

the morning's moved on,

I've been on the screen

too long, it's obscene!



Didn't eat dinner!

didn't eat lunch,

forgot to have a

snack, or even eat

brunch!



Totally involved

with the world on a

screen, won't dare

acknowledge I've

even seen..anyone

near me,trying to

intervene!



So I guess, after some

realization,

I begin to have an

actualization

that ,yes I do, I

really do, have an

addiction,

and that is true!



And letting go will be

a "good call".

to "live again" is better,

than no life at all!









By lilwinky

Written July 2005

Author's Notes/Comments: 

I have to say, that this is also unfortunately autobiographical...I use to make myself stay up longer till I was weary. and red eyed!!!..but, since I am  on only a three hour limit...I  can't go over that limit any longer...because I have so many other things to do in my life...and also because my fiance' doesn't want me to "waste away" my mind, spirit, and personality...so I have to keep my head above "water" and just "deal with the addiction" and have a "life" instead!  ;-)

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