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Darkness & Dealings with Death - a poetry collection by CM
Disbelief coupled with the unknown..
I heard the news over the phone
I’m damn glad I’m not staying home
This is getting too real for me
It’s just Thursday night but I gotta be free
Take a breath in take a breath out
Emotions run so high I want to scream and shout
Take a shot of vodka and make it go away
Can’t discuss it just yet, it’ll ruin the day
I know I’m living on time that’s borrowed
Because soon I’ll be drowning in my sorrow
I nearly gave in once or twice
When I experimented and gave my arms a slice
Of all people it should have been me
But as we all know something’s are not meant to be
The laughter fades away and the curtains begin to close
I’ll leave a rose on your gravestone, a single red rose
--
Lulu
You were my Lulu
My baby
I’ve never forget
The way you ran around
With your bright orange squeaky bone
Or even with the pear in your mouth
Parading it around make sure
I saw
I always say you
I want you to know
I wish I could still see you now
There’s not enough sorry’s
In this world to cover
Your loss
And I’ve learned nothing lasts forever
And I’ve learned I’ve got to make my own happiness
But I can’t help the fact
That my mind wanders
Back to you
And I can’t help the fact
That I knew
When I heard the thud
It was you
And my world shattered
Because I knew
You were gone from me
And that’s the one
Thing
That would last
Forever…
-
In Memory..
You’ve given me
What I could never imagine giving back
The feeling of need
Your dependence on me
Made me responsible
Because I knew
You couldn’t do without me
And despite my complaints
I love you still
And I will continue to do so
Even as you live
As a memory
-
Never Forgotten
Rain drops like tears
On the leaves of the trees
Someone in Heaven
Is morning for you too
I didn’t say a proper goodbye
I didn’t tell you enough
How much I loved you
Now all I have is the cement
Of your gravestone for comfort
And your memories to haunt me
--
Cemetery
Midnight has fallen
In the land of the dead
Footsteps sound on the ground above
Sound like thunder
To the world below
Whispers like screams
To those underground
Shattering the silence
They protest in anger
But a soul silences them
Explaining that it is only
Two teenagers
Lost in the old cemetery
Meaning no harm only trying to escape
Running away from their lives
Away from society
Their parents
Themselves
Trying to discover
The “big picture”
The meaning of life
Their fingers entwined
Not wanting to lose the other
In thus struggle to survive
They make their way through
The gravestones
Past the oak trees
Trampling over long wilted flowers
To disappear into the mist
Near two gravestones
That belong to two teenagers
So deeply in love
--
The possibility of things to come
You we’re supposed to suffer
All my wounds
Have been self-inflected
All my scars are evidence
But you
Who carry your disease
Gracefully, silently
You who can laugh
Despite your fears
While I can do nothing
But fight back tears
It’s too heavy for me
I can’t be pulled down
Again
I’m not afraid this time
I won’t recover
& for me too
It will be the end.
-
Dark Angel
Whence did you come from
Dark angel?
My sweet savior
My sudden death
Your passionate kisses
Your poisoned lips
I see nothing beyond you
I feel nothing beside you
Your compassion
Your hatred
I want no one else
You dark eyes
Hold me
Enchanted
Your seductive smile
Melts me
There is no one
But you
