I'm drowning in this ocean of pain,
And burning in this acid rain.
I'm falling through memories;
Slowly killing me, is this disease.
Every night I try to change,
What thoughts run through my head.
But I cannot help,
To what events this may have lead.
It kills me every time,
I have to say goodbye,
To the times with no pain;
No suffering in vain.
I die from bleeding inside,
The blood pours on the floor.
I die from fatal suicide,
I couldn't take it anymore.
I took a kitchen knife,
Or a razor and a lighter.
I ended my life;
I was never any fighter.
I've given up on life,
I've given up on me.
I've given up on everything;
Said it cannot be.
I've ended my being,
All so you could be free.
I want you to see,
As I end all of me.
Now that I'm no more,
My corpse lies on the floor.
Now that I never speak again,
Will you have the strength I never gained?
My end, though,
Was a group contribution.
It was thanks to me, and to them,
That led to my execution.
Our hearts, our love, it never bends,
But this is how my story ends.
I understand if you cried,
If you hurt when I died.
But listen to me now,
You still have time,
Before the pain overcomes
Your whole being, like mine.
Run away from it all,
Run away from your past.
I may be dead,
But you will still last.
Everything will be all right,
I promise you that, dear.
I'll be in your heart every night;
My spirit will lay near.
For the rest of your life,
For the rest of forever,
I can't ever let you forget,
When we were together.
Every once in a while,
Will you think of me?
The memories will last,
They will always be.
It was not at all your fault,
That I don't live anymore.
I was my own and others;
You I'll always adore.
Many years will have passed,
And I will be forgot.
You'll live a better life,
Now that I've died and rot.