each minute
each year of my life is
spinning by faster
and I am unraveling it
as if in search of something
I long for pieces of crushed velvet,
jagged edges,
sharp silver tongues
that leap to me from all their loves and all their stories
I keep wanting things I can’t touch
I think I know how something feels
until I realize I am just the mirror
I am unraveling
until I will run out of moments
and then
what will it all be for
maybe if I’m as high as I’m supposed to be
if I don’t have anything to cry over
I don’t know what to do with myself…
and what would I do with all that time
so now I have inhaled a lifetime of pure feeling
I am soaked and can’t come up or down
my head is pounding
I am swimming in a sea of chaos
that stings my skin
feels like exactly what I want to be
I am bursting and still the silence is drier than my mouth
maybe now I’ll let you cut me open
This is profoundly beautiful.
This is profoundly beautiful.
Starward