All the tidal waves push past me.
I float off the ground
my steps are so heavy when there’s no one around
I have to keep making sure I am solid
I can’t stay rounded
when I’m forced into corners and suffocating
I smile at blank faces in the hallways
on days that I feel like a sixth grader
with nowhere to sit
and now here I am with my crooked teeth
expecting you all to believe me.
I hang the sun from my shoelaces
I say I say I say I still think the world is beautiful
I say I say I keep saying I’m fine
Repeat with me this punch line
we’ve all understood
when the hands creep in
and all the silence
comes knocking at our doors.
Before my blood is old and forgotten
I want to spill it glittering
onto your words and make me lighter,
feather enough to take flight.
And then our lips touch,
there are so many more places to sit,
so many audiences to follow my pen.
When my heart is bound to beat out of this living
I look out at the crowd
and they all have your smell,
your eyes,
your handwriting,
you touch me with hands that don’t sink through
and I am solid,
I am something,
I am yours,
we are home.
Now I am with you
and I won’t float off the ground anymore.