I double the weight of all your words
and wrap them up in perfect,
I’m notorious for seeing dawn in sunsets
and spending all the weak nights in counterfeit light.
There are so many people I shouldn’t be missing
but still I keep saving all the sentences
this ache makes me feel like starting over
letting go, drowning a little every day.
I would keep every risk, every sin spilled out
if that’s what you said you wanted,
but I am too close to the edge here
I will bury it all in treasure and stop thinking.
There are so many people I shouldn’t be missing
pinned to the poison walls of this brain,
the files keep growing and as always
I can never throw anything away.