By
Richard Haesche
"You gonna sleep all day, my sweet?"
I asked my wife one day.
"You know you have some guests to greet
And pass the time of day."
She lay there seeming not to hear
My words to wake her up.
Oh, well, I thought, stay there, my love,
I'll fill your coffee cup.
I poured the coffee from the pot
And spooned in sugar, too.
I added cream, 'cause it was hot,
And stirred the fresh, hot brew.
I took it to her sleeping side
And watched her as she slept,
A moment more I'd give the bride
So many years I'd kept.
I sat there, thinking, knowing that
Her sleep she needed badly,
I thought of dreams that all fell flat
And how she'd felt so sadly.
I tried to recollect the day
When first we fell in love.
I'm sure it all began in May
When skies were blue above.
Remember, dear, when we were young,
And courting was in style?
And all the songs we used to sing
Would bring to us a smile?
And what about the time you said,
'Of course you'd marry me.'
And how we sang and laughed instead of
Acting bashfully?
Yes, darling, life has been so long,
Some happiness we've known.
We've shared some blues, known right and wrong,
The years for us have flown.
We've huddled in its sorrows,
And trembled in its grief,
And looked for its tomorrows
Oh, my God, it's been so brief!
I looked at 'mother' laying there,
Her hair all turned to gray,
And suddenly I felt the fear
I'd always put away!
Her face was white, her breathing stopped,
Her heart no longer beat,
I'd never know another dawn
My loving wife to greet.
She's sleeping and she'll never wake,
Nor ever smile nor nod,
She's lived her life for all our sakes,
And now she'll be with God.
Just wait awile, my dearest one,
I'll be there soon with you,
At Heaven's gate, there'll be no strife,
We'll start our lives anew.
There is NOTHING in this poem that I would deem "self-pity". I see a grieving man who loved a woman for many years and still carries her in his heart. I see young sweethearts who stuck together through many years of living life as it came and the man left alone to miss her. My God! Had I had half the love you show here in this lovely piece of work, I assure you I would not have divorced my husband of 24 years. This is beautiful and touching and only a hard-hearted fool would dare to criticize a grieving husband for the loss of a beloved wife. I hope things are better for you now. I will certainly add you to my prayer list. God Bless.
Jessica