Locking lips with addiction
I said I never would
but that night it was different
and at his door I stood
He reached up my shirt
and undid years and years of pain
he found the switch to my demeanors
re-lit my flickering flames
I felt so interconnected; a part of something
he knew I never had
but still then I cried oh "woe, is me!"
and I didn't know things had yet to get so bad
Cheating on addiction with addiction
loving the eyes I gazed in and the scrathes I craved-
to inflict on myself and still expect
him to be there in a place only space for one lover to stay
And in the same breath he kissed me
in my mouth he left a sigh
then I knew I only had myself and
only myself to despise