Each morning when I wake up
And start each depressing day
I can’t help but wish I could be
So very far away
Each day I say will help
If I can just make it good
But something always goes wrong
And doesn’t go as it should
I can’t enjoy myself
No matter how hard I try
Something always gets me down
That makes me want to die
I’ve got two very hard choices
I need to make the right one
In my head I hear the voices
Telling me to get it done
Every morning when I wake up
I wonder if today’s the day
That I will do the job
And send my pain away
If I start to laugh
Something always stops inside
My whole world shuts right down
And makes me want to hide
My energy’s getting low
And I just start to cry
If only my pain would go away
If only I would die
These two choices
Are the hardest ones I’ll make
To die and leave the pain
Or live for someone else’s sake
Maybe it’s just me
I take things at heart
Or maybe it’s my soul
Being torn apart
Sometimes I lose my appetite
Sometimes I lose control
I’ve already lost my energy
Now I’m losing my soul
So in the morning when I wake up
And start each depressing day
These are the reasons why
I want to be far away
I so understand this poem its so much the way i feel right now you have no idea
wow, this is powerful... I read this aloud and almost had a flash back of my own life while reading this...
I can tell that God has done a similar thing in your life as He has in mine, I used to be suicidal too...
and it's weird because my senior year in high school I planned in my heart that I would kill myself as soon as I graduated, and God radically revealed Himself to me right in the nick of time!
Praise God! \ً/
Feel free to check out my site... alot of my poems on my site are before and after I got saved.
Stand firm,
~Naomi