I can't let anyone inside,
they keep trying to stay in stride,
with me they fall behind,
I don't know myself and what I'll find.
It all hurts now,
it throbs away inside every day.
The pain is physical now,
it won't end unless I can say...
that I am done,
that I have control,
that I won't let it rule my world,
no, not anymore.
It's not easy,
to bend and not to break,
I wish you could see me,
that this is more than I can take.