You’ve taught me everything you know:
that no one can be trusted,
that no one cares about anyone
but themselves.
Who left you so jaded?
Why has your joy faded?
All my life I have tried to please you
although you thought everything
I did was selfishly motivated.
Were you watching me
or just bashing me?
All I ever wanted was
to be good enough
in your eyes.
Did I prove myself,
or do you still disapprove?
But now I see that
I could never please you
because you were preoccupied
trying to please your own mother.
It’s a game you won’t win;
you lost before you’d ever begin.
I’ve told you to give up~
that some people are just
rabid pessimists,
infected with misery.
I don’t want you to be like her
with your faith blurred.
Please I beg of you
surrender yourself to hope,
realize that even if she will
never believe in you,
I do and so does your Father.
He loves you despite the flaws;
He loves it all.
Open your heart to Him;
Let Him remove
the disease
you’ve transmitted from her:
bitterness and rejection.
Wow that is pretty deep stuff. You have some amazing insight into that relationship.