Makes me feel petty

I want to put so much distance between us,
So I never have to see you again.
I want to take down all our pictures,
So I never have to feel you again.
I want to change my phone number,
So I never have to hear you again.

Not because I hate you.
It's the opposite, you see.
I love you too much.
I don't think you even know.
And if you do know then you don't care.

I'm just your backup,
default,
if there's nothing better,
late night hook up,
Girl.

I was raised to be empty,
Level headed and placid.
You're the same; can't cope with your feelings.
So were cruel to each other.
The pain is easier to handle.

Whenever we're alone I can't imagine anyone else.
But you act like someone different
lying When you're around acquaintences.
Flirting with every lady.
I see them more beautiful than me.

It hurts.
And I feel ugly,
Used.

I wish I could just walk away.
But I would rather you would just walk with me instead.

Author's Notes/Comments: 

Everyone on this site is so nice. I didn't really think anyone would like any of my writing, its usally just drunk ramblings, but thank you all for the feedback.

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nightlight1220's picture

Ditto to healingwoman!

Ditto to healingwoman!


...and he asked her, "do you write poetry? Because I feel as if I am the ink that flows from your quill."

"No", she replied, "but I have experienced it. "

 

Jesster's picture

More beautiful than you?? Do

More beautiful than you?? Do you ever look in the mirror? You're gorgeous! Yes, keep writing. Even if it's drunken ramblings. Personally, I always enjoy a good rant. Welcome to PP if I haven't already said so... `HW


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