Stoically me

I was once told I was the most stoic person in the room.
The event... a poetry slam.
I didn't even read that night.
I just watched silently... alone.
Funny, I took it as a compliment.
But I had to look up the word when I got home.
I've been referred to as stoic once again.
I still took it as a compliment.
I just wish it weren't so true.
So much pain has been endured in this life of mine.
And I just took it.
But these days, I can't take anymore.
I fight it, I get angry, I lash out.
I just want to be left alone to be me.
Without the judgments of others affecting.
Yes, there are lessons.
Many lessons.
Not all bad.
But I just can't take anymore pain!
I'm ready to live in love.
To smile on the inside.
To open my heart and not close it again.
I'm ready.
But I'm like a ticking time bomb.
Stoic? yeah right!
I could explode at any moment.

Author's Notes/Comments: 

I don't know if I'm done with this one.

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b4i8islept's picture

Love it

I love this poem Healing :) I have never been to a poetry slam. Not sure what one is.

SSmoothie's picture

It's awesome! Love it! You're

It's awesome! Love it! You're wonderful! Hugss


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Lovethatred's picture

looks like a great start,

looks like a great start, don't you hate it when something sounds so good when you start then you can't finish it when you want to?


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Yeah.. That's what happens

Yeah.. That's what happens when I try to write while at work. One phone call and I lose the flow.


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