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Doing it anyway
I do not want to burden anyone
with just how utterly broken hearted I am.
After what I did...
That if I were in my right mind,
Never would have happened.
There is no way to make up for.
There is no way to fill in the holes.
No way to turn back the clock.
No way for me to explain.
Or even Understand for myself.
I would ask for forgiveness.
But I am not so sure I can even do that,
Until I find a way to forgive myself.
And to mend this broken heart.
I feel like I could cry forever.
But mostly, I choke back the tears.
For I do not want to reveal the pain.
As I don't want there to be any witness to this sorrow.
Even if it does show, so clearly in my eyes.
I still care not to burden another.
Although I do so wish to know,
Without emotionally manipulating,
That I am still loved by any or all of you.
Yep. That's some deep inner
Yep. That's some deep inner shit right there. I commented. Nuff said.
Don't let any one shake your dream stars from your eyes, lest your soul Come away with them! -SS
"Well, it's love, but not as we know it."
I love you, Ssmoothie. Nuff
I love you, Ssmoothie. Nuff said, for sure. Woe was me. But I feel better every day.
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Hmmmm
So, you're feeling sorry for yourself, you want others to feel sorry for you..
Without any explaination of what you did... I'd say burdening people with
unknown sorrow and expecting love and support is pure emotional manipulation.
Perhaps you'll get some takers, who knows.... You'd make a good politician though!
They expect support and tell you nothing!
Sorry, don't do sadness for sadness sake,
But I read it and gave an honest comment.
Bear
"Deepinyourdreams"
Exactly!!
<p>Exactly!! So pleeeaaassse don't feel sorry me. If you don't already know then you're probably not who I'm talking to. I'm not trying to be rude. I am laughing though. So I'm probably being rude. I do appreciate your candor and you actually lifted my spirits vey much. To be perfectly dishonest, I am studying to be a politician. Vote for me 2016!
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You can't unpublish
Real feelings.
I hope you are OK.
It is a mystery.
Did you do something while you were gone ?
KS
Is PS sometimes.
You are fine with me.
I'm OK. It was a destruction
I'm OK. It was a destruction of the sentimental. I really should 'just get over it!' But I'm not. Oh well. Whaaaaaa! Feel bad for me!
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Don't destroy it
What you described is Beautiful.
In it's own way.
KS
Just wanted you to know.
Too late. Uburning is
Too late. Unburning is Impossible. (Not literally but similarly). I appreciate your words very much though. I'm just working on letting go...
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Confession Is . . .
a waste of good air. So are apologies, especially if unforgivable. Continue as if all is well, and all will most likely be well. I had to recently. I love this site and I have no people skills so I get hit and slammed. You never get used to it, but fine. I can still write a pretty poem or a biting piece of satire. :D - slc
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It was mine, and I broke it. Who else cares but me?
Love your work Allets! Read you always when I see you. No offense if I'm silent.. Don't always like to type, you know.
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Quiet Is Kept
A title of a book of poems published off my press. Quiet is good for a time sometimes. Slowly, I unpublish, but only the one's I really really loved to write. Talent is like forgiveness, if unworked it builds the pressure and eventually will explode - write! U just gotta - yr poempal, Stella
You have a press? I'm waiting
You have a press? I'm waiting patiently to explode. It used to just come out, I couldn't stop it.
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