I am trying to tell you what I feel
but the thread of my thoughts
is being pushed through the eye of a needle
and some of the strands don’t fit through the hole.
I am trying to tell you what I feel
but some things get lost in translation
from my brain to the page.
I am trying to tell you what I feel
by only saying things that sound beautiful
but sometimes the truth is ugly.
I am trying not to hurt you
but I know what I am capable of
and I have seen how easily people break.
I am trying not to fuck this up
but I know how quickly tides can change
and I know how simple it would be to shatter you.
I could so easily break your heart
I've got it in the palm of my hand
and all it would take is one squeeze.
But I'll treat it like an egg
and do everything in my power to protect it
because that's the heart that loves me
I am trying to love you
but the only way I know how to love
will break you beyond repair.
<3
<3
*tallsquirrelgirl* she feels in italics and thinks in CAPITALS ~henry james