I have been thru the mill
I have drank beer in Arthur’s hell
& slept drunk on the beach
I’ve faltered steadily in night
& failed miserably in love
I am a leper to society
and am rejected by the outcasts
I am a soul solider for truth
I am a scholar of infidelity
and a prisoner of my own mind
I drank all the liquors
& ate all the mystical plants
but the inspiration was hesitant
fearful of my dark brooding eyes
Two after midnight the muses
finally come with lucid vision
but the penetration of integrity
is reluctant to make its bid
The sweet brandy is poured
but my heart is pounding out
with fear, rejection and hope
Ethereal image is merely drunk
perception of the fool
The harangue of saints does slash
at my weakened, soulless flesh
In summer I sweat love
In winter I freeze in doubt
The leaves play chameleon and fall
only to return again next spring
There are equinoxes of dreams
flapping past the quarterly solstaces
of forgotten years of our lives
but in the dark sullen night
I find only a moment of chance
like that of dice thrown in
some old Las Vegas casino
Laughing in wilderness of defeat
the saint does allude to truth
and the fallen angel is again
granted asylum in Heaven
and though the odds are again
stacked against the loner
the prophets still predict victory
for the carrier of truth
and the sun’s chariot pulled
along the sky by Apollo
shall continue to rise each day
in spite each of our lonely plights
1-6-92
1992
I just keep going for no
I just keep going for no known reason. Guess I'm a divine fool or an idiot savant.