Cold (not a love song)

It's so cold outside tonight...much like I'm feelin tonight.
I just can't get it through my head, and nothing seems to feel right.
I'm so cold now that I can barely write.
Is this all that's for me? Is this my lot in this fucking life?

I'm so cold I feel the ice running through my soul,
and I have tried so hard to know
what it feels like to have a heart of gold.
I've forgotten what love is...
My heart has grown too cold.

I don't show it much, but I feel it inside.
Sometimes it makes me just want to sit there and cry.
Why can't I have someone in my life?!
Oh Lord, I just don't wanna be alone when I die!

I'm so cold as the ice claims again my soul
as I try my very best to know
What it feels like to be good as gold,
but I have forgotten what love is...
I guess my heart is too cold.

Oh Lord I know you hear my prayers,
but if you always tell me no
how can you blame my heart for being cold?
I don't want to die alone...
Do You hear me?
I said I don't want to die alone!
What'm Llouder you say? Speak more clearly?
Fine...I'M AFRAID OF DYING ALONE!!!

I'm so cold, but the ice won't claim my soul
The Lord above hears my prayers, and He knows
how it feels to be alone.
He shows me again how true His love is...
as He starts to warm my heart that's so cold.

Author's Notes/Comments: 

I'm just feeling pretty down...I need the Lord Jesus Christ more than usual right now, and this is about how God works on His time...not ours. I'm only human though, and love is something that eludes me constantly. Nobody wants what I want...everyone thinks love means sex and vise versa...too bad for them when they find out how wrong they are I guess...they're missing out on a great guy.

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rblack952's picture

I know that feeling. I am

I know that feeling. I am going through that right now I just broke up with my girlfriend. This is my first real break up. And I also lost my group of people whom I was practicing with spiritually. All I can say is that the Lord is with you even when it doesn't feel like it.

exthias1983's picture

Believe me dude...I know, and

Believe me dude...I know, and you know that if you ever need to talk then Im here man.