Millennially Speaking

The world is a horrible place. People are
awful. Society is cruel. Institutions are evil.
Bureaucracies are hurtful. Corporations are
leeches. Democracy is failing. Healthcare costs
your life savings. The planet is too hot but
politicians pretend like it's not. Greed is what
keeps us spinning, but 99% of us aren't winning.

My cynicism is so concrete it all feels
helpless. Anxiety is so strong I'm heavily
medicated. Depression has become my main
personality. Work is demanding, sometimes
demeaning, sure doesn't pay enough. I'd go
to college to get a degree, to better myself,
but sometimes I can't even feed myself.
Exhaustion is constant. Fantasy is my only
friend. I'm ready for all this to end.

It's hard to have hope. Change can't coexist
as apathy amasses around us. Maybe it is
time to tear it all down, before it all
collapses. I used to think love was the
answer. Now I'm not sure if there is one. I
don't know what to do. I probably never did.
Suffering seems to be my only currency. I'm
tired of running in the red. Tired of my bed
being the only place I feel okay. Tired of all
the ugliness in my head. Tired of all the
ugliness in everyone else. Tired of just being.
Is this what life is supposed to be?

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SSmoothie's picture

But you, you are so

But you, you are so beautiful. A healing grace pouring out from within hugss x

Don't let any one shake your dream stars from your eyes, lest your soul Come away with them! -SS    

"Well, it's life SIMS, but not as we know it" - ¡$&am

Stephen's picture

The world is a horrible place, etc. . . .

Don't paint with such a large brush. The beauty is in the details.

Starward's picture

No, it is not. For myself,

No, it is not. For myself, chair-bound by a spinal injury that my own body imposed on itself, I have found that these larger problems that seem unsolvable and insurmountable, only impede my enjoyment of the time left to me.  I do what I can to make my immediate environment better, or enjoyable, and try to protect it from the invasion of fears that are very often promoted by the endlessly broadcasting news cycle.  What I can do about the world's vast problems is little; what I can do about my own, within my own environment (such as is it), is, for me, the larger opportunity and one I attempt to appreciate to the maximal degree.


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Stephen's picture

You are correct.

In every adversity is the seed of an opposite and far greater opportunity.  Perception is the key for me.  When I change the way I look at things, I change the things I look at.