Killing myself slowly

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I say how much I love life

as I light another smoke.

I tell people I want to live forever

followed by a cough and choke.



I love to sing especially when blue

I have been told my voice is pretty

Then light a cigarette and think of you

The one who silenced that voice



I say I want to live forever

then the pain comes again

Something I never thought I'd do

As I grab the lighter, push the lever.



I am killing myself slowly..

and I light up more when

I find myself feeling lowly

my voice silenced then



soon silenced forever..

when my heart breaks

I have had all I can take

one last time..press the lever.

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Written long ago as most of my writing is. I have lost my inspiration.

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Quitting is the hardest. I

Quitting is the hardest. I smoked for 15 yr. quit for 8. Then ( like an idiot) picked them back up a yr and a half ago. Somehow, afraid it will b harder to quit this time... Hope not though.
I used to say quitting smoking was the best thing I ever did. Changed my life. I was happier...


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