PostPoems Be Artistic. Be Creative. Be Inspired!

Lately I feel like the world is made of windows and I am on the outside looking in. I came to a few realizations not to long ago. I would like to thank a certain person for listening to me and at least trying to understand me. I would also like to thank this person for giving me great advice even though I was to stupid to take any of it. I am glad I met this person even if I never did get to meet this person. I will not say who this person is because I know this person would be very embarrassed if anyone knew they knew me.

I have decided to euthanize one of my biggest delusional dreams. I had wanted to be a writer for many years now but it seems that was just another one of my crazy fantasy dreams. Funny how millions of silent voices can drown out those few voices who say I am a good writer.

Love, money and happiness are just illusions to make you think you have a reason to live. In reality “life”, if you will pardon the expression, is a series of waking up and going to sleep until you do not wake up again.

My Mom was a fighter when it came to life. She got cancer and fought tooth and nails to live. In the end it did no good because she passed away anyway. I have heard of no one who has fought death and won yet. Like a pair of drapes from the 1950's I have hung around way to long.

I use to think there was people out there who cared for other people. I now know that is a delusion to give someone hope. This false hope is to make people think there is some kind of good in the world. That way people will think if they get by just a little longer something good will happen to them to wipe out all the bad things that have happened to them. It all sounds good in theory but none of it is true.

Anyone who might read this I do not want them to feel sorry or sad for me, not that anyone would. There is a certain liberation to realize you have no reason to live. It kind of takes the stress and worry off of me. When you don't care anymore what happens to you, numb if you will, then whatever happens to you does not hurt anymore.