i would rather it was raining
it would match my
kind of human
it would match my
kind of mind
the sun beats on my shoulder
i can’t see why i should stay
i would rather it was raining
it would match my
lie of life
stop one two three
count the reasons
these cords pull me and i break
but i’m done with hope
i’m threadbare
throw our embers to the sky
throw your kindling too much smoke
and i can’t let it scratch my face
i would rather it was raining
it would match my
kind of human
it would match my
kind of mind
the sun beats on my shoulder
i can’t see why i should stay
I write because i need to
A beast resides within
And to let it smolder would be my downfall
It would tear my body beginning
with my heart then my soul and finally my already half crazed mind
All i wish is to empty myself of words
Hoping that it, my maddness would slip out amongst it all
And so i pour and pour hoping in silent prayer
to imprison to these cold blank pages
The lines it's bars and chains
Sometimes i half think iv'e answered every question i have only to return to same
And as i stare at my sloping warm led jots
It scares my half empty mind
This beast iv'e caught as a disease is wild and foriegn
And until i catch him to word and page
I'll keep writing
I write to free myself
To sift, to find, to escape, to hope and yes to rant and rave
I write because i need to
I write because i must
Trying to find my fire
A little spark is all i need
From match to matchbox
Strike it once
Strike it twice
What keeps me here
Trying to find my fire
The limp paper match
That lit once, all burnt out
Strike it once
Strike it Twice
What keeps me here
Trying to find my fire
day by day we make our way....
thru this hell on earth....
we stumble and fall....
but thru it all....
we work towards an end...
a way to make a better day for the ones we love....
in hopes that they will do the same until we make our way above....
How do I love thee?
There are too many ways
To sit here and count
So I’ll just write a few reasons
I love you because of
How sweet you are
How considerate you are
And for your patients
Yes your patients
Of dealing with me
Brain injury and all
Even though I may forget
The little things like
When your birthday is
I don’t forget you
Or anything like that
I love you, Master
For forever and a day
And that I will serve you
As long as I live
~Chrystal
Written on
November 25, 2011