I wrote this last year when I was going through a very hard time with loneliness and depression. I wrote this poem to reflect what I was feeling and only wrote half of it at that time (obviously the first depressing portion). Then later I found what I believe to be the answer in fighting that loneliness and depression and finished the poem to create this. I used the analogy of falling from the sky and drowing to emphasize the feelings of loneliness and helplessness. I couldn't imagine being by yourself and falling to your death with no parachute or not knowing how to swim and being in the middle of a dark ocean. It describes perfectly that sense of suspense; knowing you are going to die but still trying to fight it hopelessly. These situations I used in parallel to trying to live up to everyone's expectations. The judges in the poem signify anyone who expects a ton from you, but gives you no encouragement or advice. They just watch you fail miserably even though you are trying your hardest. The darkest point of my poem, I feel is when the judges decide to deem the victim hopeless and even help quicken the death process; in this case by tethering weights to the drowning victim. The poem then turns into the victim's self reflection. The victim, much like myself, sees their own flaws and blames themselves for everything, finding himself even more worthless than before. I bring God into the situation because I believe He exists and I believe in His truth, but sometimes I don't always want to or see the benefit in it all. It's similar with the moon, how you know it does not emit its own light, but sometimes it's kind of hard to believe. There is a lot of contrasting ideas or conflicting circumstances in this poem which I love to use to add confusion and another layer of depth. Near the end of the poem the rhyme scheme and meter changes as the victim finds the answer to this situation. Essentially letting go and letting a Higher Power take care of it. Just setting your mind to the goal, the end result, which for this victim is Heaven. It's a hard life lesson I haven't even fully learned yet. Realizing that the pain isn't all there is to life and there is possibly a brighter after life. The victim allows himself to calmly die and "rest in peace" essentially in the end. He has been given hope and no longer struggles to control things and fight what will inevitably happen.
Hope you all liked it! Please leave a comment giving me advice, criticism, encouragement, anything! I would appreciate it!
