I wrote this just now, but I'm not quite sure as to whom.
It could be to my father, for doing all that he does to me, and have done over the years,
Or it could be to my boyfriend, who's been a royal jerk here lately and iv Been seeing a lot of things I didn't see before. Maybe they were there all along, maybe I was blind to see them before. Maybe iv delt with it for way to long. I don't know. But I do no is, I'm tired of it all. And I'm coming to relize this isn't what I need. I always had feelings for him, they haven't stopped, I still care for him, but I don't think I loved him. I don't know what to do, but I can't stand by and be abused like this. Iv let myself get Hirt by other men, and I can't do that shit again. Why does god make me a bad guy magnet? Seems like most of the time, I attract the wrong kind. But not always. And my hearts been beating for another man, and my minds, been thinking of him. He treats me better then any other has, and I want to be his. I'm going to ride this train, for a lil while longer, see what happens, but after that I'll make my desion. And I think iv already made up my mind. I think I want to board another train, I think it's time to switch directions, go somewhere new, see where it takes me. Im in love, with someone new. And my hearts being pulled to him, and my heart is what I follow, and it's leading. Me to him. Ill hopefully see him soon.
