I wrote this one early morning before practice at band camp started, Summer 2002.
I hate myself....yay
i'm just a toy, and always will be, only a toy....
I think too often we hide part of ourself from God cause we don't want him to see cause we are afraid he will reject us. I know this is true for me but I always try to remind myself that when I am with God I should hold absolutely nothing back.
My memories from a very dark time in my life when I was diagnosed with a very serious illness. I was 14 at the time.
