insecurity sinks into my heart to rest for the day
and no matter how hard I try it will not go away
when I try to talk to God, I stumble on my words every time
I can't say what I want without suffocating deep inside
I'm afraid to be honest, afraid of the truth, afraid to be truly exposed
my brain can't seem to comprehend that anything I have to say God already knows
why do I keep getting on my knees and only showing him half of who I am
why do I feel that I must keep going on and trying to hide and pretend
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(so)when you praise him, don't hold anything back
when you worship him do it with all of your heart
when you pray to him, tell him everything on your mind
when you love him love him more than anything in the world
don't hold anything back
when it's time to talk to God I put on a mask
but why can't I understand that he can see past
he can see the fear, he can see the pain and all my sins
and if I keep this up I know in the end no one wins
aren't the scras in his hands proof enough for me
why do I feel I have to hide myself from him so he can't see
cause in the end what does that even solve at all
it will just make it more difficult to recover when I fall
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he didn't just give half of himself for me
so why should I only give him half of myself
he didn't only spill half of his blood to give me life
so why should I hide half of my life from him
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Very well written and even if you feel like you are holding back, you can't, not from God...God knows everything,how you are feeling, your insecurities, everything....you cannot hide anything from God even if you feel like you are, you are only fooling yourself...but very well written feelings on the subject...Pam