Don't hold anything back

Folder: 
2005

insecurity sinks into my heart to rest for the day

and no matter how hard I try it will not go away

when I try to talk to God, I stumble on my words every time

I can't say what I want without suffocating deep inside

I'm afraid to be honest, afraid of the truth, afraid to be truly exposed

my brain can't seem to comprehend that anything I have to say God already knows

why do I keep getting on my knees and only showing him half of who I am

why do I feel that I must keep going on and trying to hide and pretend



chorus

(so)when you praise him, don't hold anything back

when you worship him do it with all of your heart

when you pray to him, tell him everything on your mind

when you love him love him more than anything in the world

don't hold anything back



when it's time to talk to God I put on a mask

but why can't I understand that he can see past

he can see the fear, he can see the pain and all my sins

and if I keep this up I know in the end no one wins

aren't the scras in his hands proof enough for me

why do I feel I have to hide myself from him so he can't see

cause in the end what does that even solve at all

it will just make it more difficult to recover when I fall

chorus



he didn't just give half of himself for me

so why should I only give him half of myself

he didn't only spill half of his blood to give me life

so why should I hide half of my life from him

chorus

Author's Notes/Comments: 

I think too often we hide part of ourself from God cause we don't want him to see cause we are afraid he will reject us.  I know this is true for me but I always try to remind myself that when I am with God I should hold absolutely nothing back.

View fighter4life's Full Portfolio
pamschwetz's picture

Very well written and even if you feel like you are holding back, you can't, not from God...God knows everything,how you are feeling, your insecurities, everything....you cannot hide anything from God even if you feel like you are, you are only fooling yourself...but very well written feelings on the subject...Pam