I tried not to lose myself
To the monster that lurked within
But the battles just begun
And all that's left of me is sin
All the silent tears I've cried
Have just aided in my pain
I fear the worst has yet to come
And for that I am ashamed
I fear my life is over
For the monster's been set free
What was left of me has been taken
The darkness has consumed th best of me
My troubled past I've pushed aside
In attempt to keep contained
But I've lost all hope for I am the ghost
Of a tormented child filled with blame
The fifth from the sun,
The weirdest one of them all
Nothing but gases so very combustible,
A very dark hole that sinks inside
Its rings disappearing
Not a clue why
One minute is orange then a gray,
The dark spot never seems to change.
It grows bigger and darker things,
Fading away
Nevertheless, no one knows why what he or she says is
Where’s the answer,
No one knows.
All we can do is watch it grow,
Combustible gases is all there seems to be
So how do we learn from it?
If no one can breathe
From what we know,
You think it suffers pain,
I am the fifth from the sun,
Also the weirdest of them all
Hurt and pain
Sad and lonely are my gases
Being combustible from what is in me.
A dark hole where my heart once belong,
Seems to be growing within
Bigger it gets and things fade away.
I ask why no one knows,
So all we do is watch it grow.
I cannot breathe from combustible gases
Do I learn from it?
If I cannot, breathe,
This knowledge of what I was tot,
Seems to say that no matter
A planet or man
We must all suffer from pain
The same
hearing voices calling me names
in so much unbelievable pain
why won't they leave me alone
why am I all on my own
can someone save me from myslef
can someone pull me out of this hell
I am trapped within these chains
hoping I don't go insane
feeling monsters touch me again
wishing for this torture to end
why can't they go away
will I make it through today
can someone save me from myslef
can someone pull me out of this hell
I am trapped within these chains
hoping I don't go insane
desperate for comfort that I need
watching from the outside as I bleed
I can't concentrate, my thoughts are mixed up
I taste the pain as it fills my cup
can someone save me from myslef
can someone pull me out of this hell
I am trapped within these chains
hoping I don't go insane
SHE WAS LOOKING FOR LOVE
AND FOUND A MAN TO SOON
SO SHE WAS LIVING FOR LUST
THE MAN TALK WAS TOO SMOOTH
EVERYTHING HE SAID WAS A LIE
SHE SCARED TO FACE THE TRUTH
AND SCARED TO FACE THAT MAN
ONLY BECAUSE OF HIS RIGHT HAND
SHE KNEW ABOUT THE OTHER GIRLS
AND SHE KNEW ABOUT HIS BABIES
SHE KNEW HE BEAT ON LADIES
AND SHE KNEW THAT MAN WAS CRAZY
HE HAD HER SPRUNG ON DOPE
SO SHE WAS HAVING SEX WITH EVERYBODY
BEING USED AND ABUSED
SHE NO LONGER HAD A JOB
SO SHE STARTED SELLING HER BODY
TWO MONTHS LATER SHE WAS SHOCKED
TURNED OUT SHE WAS GOING TO BE A MOMMY
SHE WANTED TO END HER LIFE
KNOWING THE BABY WAS GOING TO BE A BASTARD
SHE HAD A SERIOUS SITUATION
ITS EITHER GET AN ABORTION
AND GO BACK TO THAT MAN
OR KEEP THE BABY
AND LEAVE THAT LIFE STYLE
SHE KEPT THE BABY
AND RETURNED TO THAT MAN
FOUR YEARS LATER SHE PASS AWAY
LEFT BEHIND A BEAUTIFUL DAUGHTER
THAT NOW LIVE THAT LIFE
BECAUSE THAT MAN WAS HER FATHER
People find it hard to believe,
the amount of pain I feel.
They can't possibly fathom,
that such agony, could be real.
I pray they never have to know,
this kind of pain, first-hand...
...but I also pray, that someday,
they would at least, understand.
I had a love I wanted to share
Looking back... noone cared
Love is for the weak, and the clinically insane
Noone cared when my mind, body, spirit, and heart were in pain
They just said real men don't cry
You have no idea how hard I tried
There’s so much that this life can bring. We endure hurt, joy, endless pain, and all kinds of things. We try so hard to be strong and survive. We keep those hard times in our memories and locked away inside. But what happens when we’re hit with a blow to the heart. Feeling a pain that tears us apart. It takes our breath away and it doesn’t seem real. At that moment no one in the world knows how you feel. You think you know, but you don’t have a clue. You don’t know what I’ve been through. The one thing that I want isn’t money or fame. My only wish is that someone could take away the pain. Take away this hole that’s just been burned inside of me. These holes in my lungs that’s making it hard for me to breathe. Take way my delusional mind and fill my empty soul. Someone please help me try to get under control. It’s so hard to except this reality and what’s happened in the past couple of years. You don’t know how hard it is for me to show my tears. And although I may appear to be put together how a female is suppose to be. Inside I’m still waiting for someone to take this pain away from me. This pain that feels like it’s been forever. Loosing the ones I loved. The ones that made my life better. Take away this pain. Keep me from going insane. Just hold my hands and tell me everything will be all right. Tell me something that will comfort me at night. Theoretically therapist will tell me things that are all the same. I don’t need someone to look at me weirdly. Just someone to take away the pain.
I don't care what you think
I don't care what you want
If you think I'm so wrong, than why are you with me?
I don't care how Small it is
I don't care I could easily do it
If it's such a small issue, than deal with it yourself
You want to have an issue with anything I do?
Too bad, get over it, you're not my dad
You're just my partner, so deal with it
When you said you loved me, it was all of me.
When you said you wanted me forever, you can't pick and choose
Either you accept me for who I am, or you keep it moving
Some might think I'm being selfish and mean
Because you try so hard while I try so little
Well that your choice, not mines, and I don't care.
I like that you care and make me feel special
I love it that you are there for me whenever
But don't you dare expect the same in return.
If you want to be you, than that's who YOU are, not me
I'm going to be myself, whether you like it or not
And in the end, if you leave, I won't care.
I feel so used,
So bruised and broken,
If only I could heal the hopeless...
Inside this pit I call a soul,
There used to be a bright light that shined for you,
You ripped it out and stomped upon it
Like you never even gave a shit